Dear Harrison & Hunter
Well….6 months hey, who would have thought, we made it!! And your dad and I are still talking….bonus!!!
It seems like a life time ago that my life took the biggest sharp turn and I discovered I was pregnant! And then there was the day life would never be the same, when we found out there wasn’t one of you but 2…..wow! But here we are over a year down the track and going great guns!
It hasn’t been easy, in fact honestly its fair to say it’s been the most challenging thing, both emotionally and physically, I have ever done (and I’ve done a bit!). There was the pregnancy, the birth and not knowing if you would both be breathing (thankfully you were), then seeing you in a humidicrib in NICU with tubes and monitors. Then there was the fear when we got you home, would we do this right? Would you be ok?
We’ve battled with colic, reflux, stomach bugs and sleepless nights. We’ve had a crash course not just about first time parenting, but being parents to twins. We’ve found out that 2 hands is not enough!! That you want, more than anything to be with each of you at the same time, but often you can’t. We’ve faced tough decisions like who will be cuddled first, who gets picked up when they are crying first and who gets changed first. Little decisions that hurt a twin parent every day but we’ve coped, and we did it ourselves because you are both everything to us.
From the moment you were born you have given life everything! I have been blown away by your strength and determination to survive! Watching your personalities grow has been the most rewarding part so far. Your cheekiness and sense of adventure will be cherished as you grow!
We’ve already shared some amazing journeys. A road trip to Queensland, to the beach, the zoo, vivid, pubs, restaurants and more. We’ve squeezed in every adventure we can and I relish the look on both your faces as you soak up all the excitement life has to offer! We’ve become a team and we’ve got each others back! I’ll never forget coming home from my surgery and having a cuddle with you knowing that no matter what happens we have each other!
Above all you have taught me so much about myself and life. You have reminded me of how precious life is, how to be honest and true to myself and what really matters in life. You have taught me to stand up for myself, back myself and be proud of who I am. And more than anything you have filled my life with a brightness that I never imagined. You have made me clarify who I am and what I want to do. I promise to make you proud of me. I’ve learnt a lot about life in your first 6 months and I have you both to thank for opening my eyes!
We live in a world filled with fear, violence, discrimination and hate. While I can’t shelter you from everything, I promise I will do everything in my power to protect you and allow you to have the innocent, fun childhood that you deserve. I promise that I will teach you every thing you need to face life. I will teach you to be honest, open and respectful. I promise to make you accepting and caring of others, ensure that you will not judge or criticise. I promise to make you confident and fearless. I promise to support and encourage you to do what ever you want to do and be who you want to be. And above all I promise to nurture care and love you unconditionally.
Thank you for the last 6 months. For being you and for making me! Keep going little tigers!!
Love Mum xx